Imperfectlyperfect

One of the biggest things I've been learning in recovery is that there is no perfect way to eat. Every person is different and will need different types of foods at different times. I used to base what I was eating off of what others ate but that doesn't work because other people eat differently from each other. I'd say I'm somewhere in the middle stages of intuitive eating. Sometimes I do it well and other times not so well but I've been learning that's okay. I am not defined by my eating habits. Eating is just like drinking water or sleep or going to the bathroom. It's something we do everyday because we need to but it isn't the main focus of our lives and sometimes we do it more or less than other days and that's totally okay.  greek yogurt and bannana and cocoa powder smoothie (highly recommend just make sure banana's ripe)  toast with pb and jelly  bread with roast lunchmeat and cheese and multigrain chips and carrots...

Hi guys! So I am going to continue my story but I also have a couple of random thoughts.  1. Have you heard of Mandisa? She recently came out with a new album and yesterday I was looking up her story which is pretty cool. Here's a link to a recent interview  http://abcnews.go.com/Entertainment/mandisa-reveals-deep-depression-led-suicide/story?id=47025988 2. What do you think of women pastors? I have mixed feelings. Most trusted sources I've found on the internet say women should never be pastors but then I wonder about people like Joyce Meyers who seem to be really helping people and speaking truth as a pastor. Not that I'm thinking of going into church ministry. I'm just curious.  3. I really hate silverfish. They come on my windowsill at night which is right where my bed is and it freaks me out. I never know where they're gonna be there or not. I try to squish them when I see them but I'm always afraid more are going to come and crawl on me at night. A...

Ok so I thought I'd start sharing my story with you all. As I mentioned before I'm not a huge fan of sharing personal information but if it my story can encourage you or help you in any way then it's worth it.  To begin this journey I have to tie in two aspects of my childhood. First I have always been an insecure person. Part of this stemmed from my family dynamic and part of it is just my personality.  I always felt like other kids were somehow better than me and I believed I didn't have the authority to choose my friends but rather it was they who chose if they liked me or not. On top of this I was always afraid of getting in trouble by authority. These variables compounded made school an extra anxiety provoking place for me.  Secondly when I was 8 I was first exposed to someone who was drunk without knowing what that meant or what alcohol was. This experience literally terrified me and as I was continually exposed to this situation for the next several ye...

Anyone else find sleep super fascinating? Like how is it that we can be unconscious everyday for 8hrs? Sleep is one of those things that I wish the science field knew more about. I mean I haven't researched it thoroughly, but it doesn't seem like there's a whole lot of information out there. We know sleep is good for us and there are negative consequences when we don't get enough but we don't what's actually happening while we sleep. That leads me to dreams. Super fascinating. The emotion that's sometimes felt in them is super strong sometimes it temporarily changes my perspective on someone based on what they did in my dream. And then sometimes dreams are just so random it's like where did that come from? And being tired is another phenomenon. Sometimes it's super hard to sleep or I can survive on less than 8hrs but other times I sleep 9 or 10 hrs and I'm still drowsy all day. How does that happen? Often I wake up in the early mornings. ...

So today I switched my blog over google blogger so hopefully it will be easier for people to find.  So here's a quick update on my life  Work: Our schedule changes weekly so we never know what it's going to be until Friday which can be annoying. I'm grateful for my bakery job but I also am grateful for time at home to be able to do what I want.  Family: I don't see my mom much because she's working 8hrs a day and my brother's still in school but that'll change in a couple weeks. I kinda enjoy having the house to myself except I don't really have it to myself because my dad is in the kitchen all day working.  Media: I've been reading Presumed Guilty by James Scott Bell which is like a murder mystery. Haven't been watching tv. I'm waiting for my shows Counting On and the Baites to come back on. America's Got Talent comes on next week. I don't watch that dedicatedly but off and on I do. Music: I've begun switching my ipod ove...

May 23, 2017 At college when people find out I'm studying to be a dietitian, they often observe what I eat and ask me if studying nutrition makes me more concerned with what I eat or if all nutrition majors eat super healthy.  I don't know how to answer them. I don't want to get into the details of what it's like to have disordered eating habits. I try to share with them that a balanced diet is the key and out body needs all types of foods.  It makes me think about the things I wish I'd known when I was 12 and how I want to be a good example of wellbeing to others. How can I as one who understands the thoughts behind disordered eating demonstrate a healthy perspective for others? 1. I don't say "I ate too much" or "I shouldn't have eaten that". Sometimes I think it but I don't express it. Part of the reason for this is that I'm not a super verbal person to begin with but also I don't want peop...

May 21, 2017 Hi all! So today I'd like to talk about body image and share what I've been learning so that hopefully it will encourage you.  More often than not disordered eating and negative body image go hand in hand. But having a negative body image can also occur separately from disordered eating. I don't have the exact statistic but I've seen that a very high percentage of women are dissatisfied with the way they look.  I want to wrestle through this topic with you because it's extremely important. I am by no means fully recovered from my negative body image, but I have come a long way and I want to share what I've been learning.  1. There is an ideal body image but it's not possible to obtain for the majority of people. I've been told that there is no such thing as a perfect body and that what society considered beautiful has changed over time. People use the example of back in the old days how heavier...