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Weened Recap

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Saturday: 

Our church does this women's conference every year. This year my mom and I were in charge of the food. So we had to be there early at 7:30 and didn't get home until 4. I enjoyed interacting with the other women and I really enjoy being in the kitchen to set up and organize the food. The actual content of the conference was kinda boring. It's only their 3rd year doing it and the lady running it has a lot on her plate right now. 




When we got home around 4 I wasted time on the computer (aka facebook) and then ate dinner and then did some baking and then watched a recap of the royal wedding on tv. I ended up going to bed later than I planned but that's nothing new. 



Sunday: 

I woke up at 6 and my mom and I headed out to get the donuts for church at 7. She volunteers once a month to do the morning cafe for church which consists of free coffee, tea, bagels, donuts, muffins, fruit. I help her whenever I'm home. I don't normally drink coffee but yesterday I dran…

5 Ways I'm learning to be ok with my body

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Body image isn't about the way you look. It's about the way you think you look. 


I'm a very average person with an average BMI.

I've come a long way in accepting how my body looks. See, I still wish that I was thinner but I'm able to recognize that it's my mindset that needs to be changed not my body. I know that where I am right now is at a healthy place physically and mentally.  I also know that my body can't function well past a certain weight. Some people's bodies can but mine cannot and that's 100% ok.
1. Getting help. 

The right kind of help. I've been to counselors in the past and they never really helped me. 

But my counselor at college was used to working with people with eating disorders and she helped me tremendously through my recovery. 

She also recommended I take zoloft for my anxiety and obsessive thoughts which I think has really helped me. 

2. Learning about intuitive eating 

Part of my issues with food in high school stemmed from me fe…

Happy first week of spring!

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Linking up with Amanda at Running with Spoons for 
My second post in the span of 7 days? I'm very proud of myself. Lol. We'll see how long I can keep this up but I figured doing another Thinking Out loud Thursday post would be the best way to go with this.


First of all I just need to mention that I really dislike snow. I get people say it's pretty and all. And I agree that at Christmastime it could be ok but not on the first day of Spring!

Our college closed today which was good but I didn't have that great of a day which I think is from a combination of stress, the annoying snow, forgetting to take my meds this morning (whoops!), and possible PMS?

Also it was really hard coming back to school on Sunday after being at home for a week. But I'm trying to be grateful for the opportunity to go to college and study what I want to rather than complain about it.

Yesterday I hosted a taste testing event with my nutrition club. I baked stuff at home and brought it back to …

Spring Break!

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So I'm hibernating this week in my house because it's literally freezing everyday despite the fact that it's supposed to be Spring soon!!!!

Anyway I struggle with writing on the blog consistently and then when I have the time to write I'm not sure what to write about necessarily. So I think I might just give you updates on my life periodically.

College:

Currently taking Medical Nutrition Therapy + lab, Nutrient Metabolism+research project, Christianity in Asia,  and PhilosophyI enjoy my classes and I enjoy learning but I also really enjoy breaks from schoolwork. I'll  be excited when the semester is over. My brother is coming to my college next yr as a freshman so that's excitingI'm planning on living in a 5 person apartment next yr which will definitely be an adjustment from a dorm but I think it'll be good.  

Homelife:

It's been really good to be home and spend time with my mom. My cat Spice (pictured above) who used to live in my room started peei…

Things I have strong opinions about

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So my new semester officially started. My college does this weird thing where we take a 3 hr class every day during January. I was in Social Psychology this year which I enjoyed but I'm ready for a different schedule now. I am really grateful that I had so much free time over the past couple months. It helped me to feel rejuvenated. 
I generally don't have strong opinions about things. I tend to go along with the opinions of others pretty easily but there are a few things I do have a very strong opinion about.  Sometimes when I speak about it I can come across as judgmental or harsh and I know that's something I need to work on. However, I wanted to share them here because I'm often better at expressing my thoughts in writing than verbally. 

Fair warning these are my personal opinions, values, and convictions. Please do not take offense at what I say. I have very limited exposure to these matters and the opinions I've formed are based on the environment and teaching …

Intuitive Eating Journey

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So I thought I'd share a little update on my journey with intuitive eating. I by no means have this all figured out. I'm always in a learning process with it but I know so much more now than I ever have before. 

Up until 8th grade I never gave eating a whole lot of thought. My mom gave me food to eat. There were certain things I liked eating and certain things I didn't but that was about it. I probably don't remember much about my food habits because I didn't think about them much. 

As I approached middle school there were a bunch of foods I started to restrict that wasn't for the purpose of losing weight or being healthier but rather the result of an irrational fear I had of being poisoned but that's a story for another day. 

Seventh grade I was slowly but steadily cutting out foods in an attempt to get healthier. Became too restrictive. Lost too much weight. Got help from a nutritionist and started a meal plan. That year I stuck to my meal plan really well a…

MLK Weedend Review

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This isn't my cat. I just really like cats and this one is adorable so I thought I'd share. 


So last Tuesday I came back to school for what we call J-term. We take a 3hr class everyday for 3 weeks. On the one hand it's nice to have more free time  (although the teachers normally give a lot of homework too) but on the other hand it's really weird to have a lot more unscheduled time on my hands. 

Friday: 
I was really struggling with social anxiety. For me that looks like a mixture between depression, anxiety, and insecurity that I'm socially inadequate or my friends will no longer like me. A common example is when I see one of my friends with another of their friends whom I don't know very well. I feel jealous and physically hurt. 

In my social psychology class (the one I'm currently taking) we learned how we compare ourselves to people and feel threatened if they succeed in areas of life that are valuable to us but if they succeed in areas of life that aren…