MLK Weedend Review

This isn't my cat. I just really like cats and this one is adorable so I thought I'd share. 

So last Tuesday I came back to school for what we call J-term. We take a 3hr class everyday for 3 weeks. On the one hand it's nice to have more free time  (although the teachers normally give a lot of homework too) but on the other hand it's really weird to have a lot more unscheduled time on my hands. 

I was really struggling with social anxiety. For me that looks like a mixture between depression, anxiety, and insecurity that I'm socially inadequate or my friends will no longer like me. A common example is when I see one of my friends with another of their friends whom I don't know very well. I feel jealous and physically hurt. 

In my social psychology class (the one I'm currently taking) we learned how we compare ourselves to people and feel threatened if they succeed in areas of life that are valuable to us but if they succeed in areas of life that aren…

Holiday encouragement

Depending on your life situation the holidays may not always be a joyful time. I don't have a lot of extended family and my family dynamic is kinda unpredictable at times so holidays can get me a bit discouraged at times.

 I thought I'd share some things that have really been encouraging me lately. 

Working at the bakery. It helps to have somewhere to go where I can interact with people and feel like I'm doing something useful with my time. Running. I haven't always had a healthy relationship with running but right now I feel like I'm in a pretty good place. It's not something I dread doing anymore but rather something I enjoy and it helps boost my mood and energy. My cat. She lives in my bedroom and cuddles with me at night. Reading books for fun! I stay up to late doing this but we're not going to talk about that right now. Baking and cooking. This is something I really miss at college. There's something really satisfying about being able to plan out an…

Semester in Review

Right so I kinda figured this would happen: that with school starting I wouldn't keep up very well with this blog and I was right. 

But now the semester's officially over which means I'm more than halfway done with my undergrad degree!!! 

Here's a brief update on my life since the last couple months. 


Time management was actually harder for me than normal this semester. I think it had to do with my class schedule. I had weird gaps of time between classes or work which weren't really enough time for me to sit down and focus on getting anything done but just enough time where I felt like I was wasting it. 
Learning to make peace with being average.Since I was in a lot of classes for my major this year I really wanted to make the highest grades I possibly could. Some of my classmates are really smart though and when I compared myself to them I felt like I didn't measure up. All I'm required to do is my best which might mean that I sometime get a B instead o…

Life Update 9/17

Here we go... 

College Life- I really like this semester so far compared to all other semesters. Everyday I thank God for the friends he's brought into my life. People I can literally  be myself with because growing up I was never able to do that. Loving my nutrition and psych classes. Haven't had much homework which is weird considering this is supposed to be a hard year. 

Thing I don't like-Working at my school dining hall. It's just really boring and long. 

Food and Body- So I can honestly say I'm at the best place I ever have been with intuitive eating and having peace with food. I'm learning to listen and respect my body. Sometimes I'm really hungry so I eat more than I normally do. Sometimes I'm not super hungry but I eat a lot because I have a strong appetite. There's a BIG difference between appetite and hunger. Sometimes I'm really busy and or lots of food isn't available so I don't eat as much. Mostly I eat salads and beans and ch…

Transitions once again

Hey readers! So when I started writing this blog at the beginning of summer I wasn't sure where it would go or how long I would keep it up. This week I moved back to college and with the start of the new semester looming I know I'm going to have even less time to do blogging things. However I'm not planning to stop completely. I'll try to do an update post about once a week. 

So here's an update so far. On Sunday my mom drove me over to college, we stopped at Panera for lunch and she helped me move in. I had trouble finding my room at first because I forgot the number and ended up knocking on random people's doors which was just slightly embarrassing. This yr I'm living with 2 other girls instead of one. It's definitely going to be an adjustment because I'm used to having a lot of time and space to myself but I'm taking it one step at a time. 

We had to come a week early to work at the dining hall on campus. I've been off yesterday and today b…

WIAW and my unique eating habits

Intuitive eating is such a long journey that I'm still learning about. I'm pretty good at knowing when I'm hungry or when I have low blood sugar and I'm good at knowing what I want to eat. 
But I have a really hard time going away from a meal or snack without wanting to eat more of something else. Often I will eat small bites of other food or snacks in my room. 
I'm not really sure why I do this but it's something I'm learning to be aware of without being judgmental with myself. I think still being hungry or unsatisfied is definitely part of the reason I don't want to stop eating. For now doing a little bit of snacking after a meal is the way I eat and I'm okay with that. I believe every person eats in a way that is unique to them and as long as it isn't causing emotional or physical distress or health problems there's no reason to change your habits. 

typical greek yogurt and banana smoothie with pb&j toast 
Went to a Chinese buffet with my…

Weekend Update

Friday: Worked from 6-11. Had fun being silly in the backyard with my mom and brother. I was planning to go for my normal run on the treadmill but was tired from getting up early and decided not to. 
Saturday: I did my normal workout which consists of running and stretching. Then I had to do some adult stuff and getting my banking and credit card system better under control. Then I went bra shopping at Victoria's Secret which I've never done before but I needed a new bra and I wanted a high quality one. 
Sunday: I had been hoping to help my mom and brother with the breakfast setup at our church but I got scheduled to work at 6:30 so I went to work until 3 and then I was really tired. I've been trying to finish up the Karen Kingsbury book and Intuitive Eating book I've been reading. Then I helped my family sort through change they had saved up and it came out to $81. I also tried to make a pb pie from Chocolate Covered Katie's recipe. It turned out ok. I think it wor…