Imperfectlyperfect

I never knew social anxiety was a real thing until recently. I always thought there was something wrong with me . I think my social anxiety was/is both biologically and environmentally learned. When I was a toddler I hated leaving my Mom at church and would cry to no end. I was afraid of teachers and other students. I always felt intimidated by them.  In Elementary School  I was labeled as quiet and shy. But my shyness went deeper than people knew. It always seemed like I was at the mercy of my classmates as to whether or not they liked me. I remember once hearing a talk about how it was important to chose our friends wisely but I thought that was silly because I didn't think I had any say in who were my friends. Other people were the ones who decided if they liked me enough to be my friend. I was always fixated on finding a best friend but even when I found someone I could call my best friend I lived in fear of losing her or that she would like one of her other friends mor

So if you didn't know I'm a nutrition major going into my senior year in college. Since the beginning of my challenges with eating I knew that I wanted to study nutrition. For many years though that was something I didn't know if I'd be able to do. I could barely keep my head above water when it came to my own experience with food. Freshman year of college I pursued treatment at my college for my struggles and slowly but steadily have come to a place of peace with food and my body that I never thought was possible.  I've always had it in the back of my mind to become a nutrition counselor and work with eating disorders. This was something I rarely voiced because I didn't want to sound hypocritical. However, I think I'm currently at a place where I could be able to help others. So my current career goals for the next couple years involve getting a nutrition internship next year (probably living at home and doing one cause I don't have much money), g