Imperfectlyperfect

Here are some random things I've been thinking about this week: 1. I am imperfect in myself and yet I don't need to feel like a failure because Christ has given me his perfection. (Thus the blog-name. I am imperfect and yet perfected at the same time. 2. It's okay that I struggle with things still such as my body image and desire for a boyfriend. What matters is what I do with these daily battles. I need to saturate my mind in God's truth and come to him with these feelings. 3. Thinking about transitioning my cat to live in my bedroom but really nervous about bringing her litter-box into my room. More about that later. 4. If you don't have a waffle maker, get one ASAP. I got one from Bed Bath and Beyond for 30 dollars and making waffles has become my newest hobby. The hardest part is making the batter and even that only takes like 5mins. It came with a recipe book which is cool and I sub in wheat flour for white and use olive oil. 5. I watched Inception...

My family has gone camping as our summer vacations since I was about 7yrs old. We started out going in a tent and now we have a pop-up camper but the parents are thinking of getting a hard shell camping next yr.  I don't really know what I think about camping. I'm used to it because it's what I've always done but it's not like the most exciting thing ever. It's honestly kinda boring at times but boring can be good.  Here are some highlights from our trip.  We got to be together as  a family which is becoming harder to do as we all do things and go places individually in out house.  I got to sleep! There were several days when I slept for like 10 hrs. I was so tired from working so much the previous week.   Eating meals as a family and not having to rush or feel anxious.  Prayer by the pretty creek.  Bonding time with our malamute Nova.  Bonding time with my brother.  Didn't run for a week and was completel...

I'm so sorry I haven't posted on here in forever!  A lot has happened this week so here's a quick recap.  I've been working about 40hrs at my grocery store job cause 2 of full time workers were away.  I'm still volunteering at the hospital and so far it hasn't been very fun but I need to get the experience to put it on my resume to apply for a dietetic internship.  On Thursday I got a period for the first time in 7 yrs!!!! Literally amazed. I wish I could say I fainted because that's make it more dramatic but I didn't. I was just shocked. I haven't quite been able to sort through all the emotions that getting a period has brought up but the biggest thing I've been telling myself is that I don't need to change anything about my eating or exercise habits. What I'm doing is good. My body knows what it needs. I don't have to force feed it but I certainly don't have to deny hunger or cravings in any way. Hoping I'll be able...

Ok so I only took this pic of what I ate yesterday which was brownie dip from Chocolate Covered Katie's recipe. Love her website so much!!!  Chocolate Covered Katie But I'm gonna try really hard to remember to take pics of my food today and post them tomorrow even though it won't officially be WIAW.  This week I'm working close to 40 hrs even though I'm part time. I like having more free time on my hands but I'm hoping this is only temporary cause 2 people are on vacation. And next week I'll be on vacation.  So I wanted to share today my thoughts about marriage. First of all I need to say that I struggle almost daily with disappointment over having never had a boyfriend. Continually I remind myself that God knows what he's doing and I can trust him. When he knows the timing is right he will bring the right man into my life. But even if he does not I can have peace and contentment.  See in theory I know that a boyfriend may bring me tempo...

Ok guys so I managed to get one picture of my food from yesterday. I completely forgot to take pic the other times I ate. We'll try again next week. So here's the last part of my recovery story... Part of my dinner= chicken and guac and kale chips and roasted potato slices That summer I took two trips back to back. First I went with my youth group on week retreat. The food was adequate but not many choices there and so overall I wasn't getting enough nutrition. Then my family took a week road trip. That trip was one I'll never forget. It was my wake up call. My family kinda has different eating habits than me and so being around them I tried to adapt to them instead of doing what I needed to do. For example they typically skip breakfast so that's what I did. We also didn't have much food available and would often go to a fast food place for dinner. I would get a chicken salad because I don't like hamburgers. Decreased food intake coupled with the w...

I enjoyed running when I had the energy but with school it was harder to actually have the energy to run but I did it anyway. I was so afraid of losing my ability to run (I hate the term getting out of shape) that I became addicted to running 2 miles everyday. This doesn't sound like a lot and it isn't in comparison to what some people do but I've learned not to compare myself to others. For me running 2 miles every single day when not good physically or emotionally. I would come home from school and dread running but knew that I had to do it. If I didn't do it I'd become anxious, depressed, and feel like a failure. Running was one thing that made me feel good about myself. I was self conscious in every other area of my life and the more I relied on running to give me confidence, the less competent I felt in other parts of my life. I don't really know how it happened but slowly my eating decreased as well. I tended to get depressed in the fall/winter and fo...

Ok so I left off where it was mid March and I didn't think there was anything wrong with the way I was eating but my parents did. My mom took me to the doctors for a "checkup" and I remember getting into a gown and her saying I was so  thin. Note to everyone: don't ever tell someone you think my have an eating disorder that they are losing to much weight or look so skinny or too thin or even unhealthy. This is what they feed on. I wanted to look super thin. Anyways the doctor weighed me and didn't tell me what my weight was but they said I'd lost a lot of weight since the last time they saw me (I don't know when that actually was). The nurse practitioner, her name was Sarah, she was a source of encouragement for my mom. She was a Christian and would pray with each time we went in for a visit. One of the other doctors wasn't very nice to me though. I remember him saying something about how I need to stop looking at the models in magazines. They reco...