MLK Weedend Review

This isn't my cat. I just really like cats and this one is adorable so I thought I'd share. 

So last Tuesday I came back to school for what we call J-term. We take a 3hr class everyday for 3 weeks. On the one hand it's nice to have more free time  (although the teachers normally give a lot of homework too) but on the other hand it's really weird to have a lot more unscheduled time on my hands. 

Friday: 
I was really struggling with social anxiety. For me that looks like a mixture between depression, anxiety, and insecurity that I'm socially inadequate or my friends will no longer like me. A common example is when I see one of my friends with another of their friends whom I don't know very well. I feel jealous and physically hurt. 

In my social psychology class (the one I'm currently taking) we learned how we compare ourselves to people and feel threatened if they succeed in areas of life that are valuable to us but if they succeed in areas of life that aren't important to us we are truly happy for them. Since I value social skills and feel insecure about my own, it makes sense that I feel competition even with my close friends regarding this area. I'm not saying this is an okay thing to do especially from a Christian perspective but it is something I struggle with and am continually working on. 

So other than that my Friday consisted of class, going to the workout room, and working at the dining hall for 4 hours. 

This also isn't my picture. I just really hate winter so I thought I'd give you a beach scene.

Saturday: 
Morning quiet time, studying for exam, going to lunch with my friend (I eat 3 meals and a night snack daily even if I don't always state it here), going to the workout room, working 4 hours, and talking to my mom on the phone. 

Sunday: 
church: I was hoping this guy I kinda like there would talk to me but he didn't. I have a really strong desire to have a boyfriend and I'm often tempted to become angry or bitter that I'm 21 and never even had a boy like me. Today I was reminded that God is not purposely withholding a good gift from me. He knows that right now having a boyfriend is not what's best for me. I can complain and argue about it all I want but that's not going to bring me what I ultimately long for which is love, security, a feeling of value, beauty, and joy. So instead of being like the Israelites who craved meat which God gave to them along with his judgement, I want to be content with what God has given me right now in life. He has given me friends, the ability to study my passion (nutrition), protection, health, family, and most importantly he has given me himself. 

But back to Sunday after church and lunch I studied some more, read some blogs, worked 4 hours at the dining hall, read more blogs at night

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Monday: We didn't have class today because of MLK day. Tomorrow we have a special chapel where the speaker is supposedly a relative of Martin Luther King Jr.'s best friend which is cool. 

So I got to sleep in a little. Did quiet time, studied for test with 3 other friends who live on my hall and are in the class (one is my roommate), went to lunch and then the workout room with said roommate, worked on my research paper for class, went to dinner where 3 friends and I talked about sex. My friend is worried that she's going to have a higher sex drive than her husband. Lol. Then I caught up on some blogs again. 

Questions? Comments? Concerns?